Thanks for all your supportive comments about my life situation when this journal was last updated, but unfortunately my dad didn't make it... On the 12th he suddenly got very tired and had trouble breathing so we called the ambulance. And it got worse from there. He laid in his hospital bed, trying to breathe, trying to talk, but he couldn't much. We tried talking to him, he could hear, but he just couldn't say much. He got very weak. We got so many visitors. My cousins and aunties took the next flight to come see him ASAP. On the 13th, we bought him Valentine's gifts and such, told him how much we loved him. He was already in a more worse condition. He was just sleeping the entire time, trying to breathe with the oxygen tank. I cried so much. We all been at the hospital the entire day. Then my cousins and aunties left with me to go home while my sister and mom stayed. It was now the 14th, and at like near 5 am we got a call and rushed to the hospital. So my cousins and aunties and I left and went to the hospital... I already had like a feeling that he'd be gone... Then we enter the room and, like.. yeah, he just.. has already passed.. At around 4:55 am is when my mom said he took his last breath. It was just so.. shocking you know. Like, that was one of my worst fears.
More people rushed over to the hospital as soon as they heard of the news. I still can't believe he's really gone... Our little community did a fundraising for our family. My dad knew literally like everyone. I remember whenever I'd go out to stores with my dad he would greet so many people that I didn't even know he knew them. As my sister would say, "His nickname is Buddy because he was like friends with everyone." Our Mayor heard of the news and sadly he couldn't make it to the fundraiser but he did send us his deepest condolences. About $2k was raised for the fundraiser. And I wanna thank all the supporters, it really warmed our hearts.
It hurt me sooo much to see him suffer and in pain... Now he's no longer suffering and it's kinda relieving. No one deserves to go through this. I'm just happy he's in a better place and thankful for having such a wonderful dad in my life. He was always so humble and gentle and forgiving. I used to cause so much trouble for him and I regret them. You never know what you have until it's gone. I know my dad is proud of me and loves me. He would do his best to make me happy, even in struggling times. I'll continue to make him proud. ♥
Okay, I don't wanna make this journal even more sad. I have some pretty happy news. My cousins offered to take us to visit them in Vegas, like a getaway from it all. My family and I could really use it. Also my uncle wants me to go to California as well, and my cousins want me to try intern at Disney Animation Studios or some other studios and like do art stuff. I don't know what the future holds for me. Before my father fell ill, I had planned to go on a trip to Cali for me and my sister's birthday. Also my parents' plan was after they both retired, they would move to the Philippines and I'd either go with them or go to the mainland. But those plans been canceled. So, I'll see how it goes. I could see myself living in California but my mom doesn't want to leave Maui and also she doesn't want to be left alone. I'm looking forward to great things.
Anyways I'll be on hiatus, I don't know how long but just until I'm ready to return. See ya soon !
February 1, 2015
Sorry for some lack of updates. I won't be much available to work on my projects. My dad got sick the past weeks, and then he had pneumonia so he had to be treated at the hospital for days. They did a colonoscopy and biopsy and found out he has pancreatic cancer, and apparently it's been there four about 3 months. He's home now but he's on oxygen tanks and taking lots of medications. He'll be resting in the living room now and we had to move a lot of things so my sister gave up her room for storage. Sad too because she finally wanted a nice room for herself but she said it's okay. So she'll be sleeping in my mom's room while my mom sleeps in the living room to keep my dad company. I'm very saddened by this news ;__; and I try to remain optimistic. I can't really get a job since no one can't watch and take care of him if he's alone. My mom's the only one working, plus my sister but she has college too and she may have to give up that but I'm like no, you need the education. And we're hoping to getting some help from others as well. Also we may have to move to a more affordable place. But yeah I just don't know what to really do. It's such a big change in my life : (
For now updates will be slow paced, I'll continue submitting the rest of my Fakemon and work on my other projects, little by little. I'd like to focus more on art, to keep all this off my mind.
If your life is in a stressful or difficult situation, just keep going and stay strong. Things will get better. Don't give up, you can power through it! ♡